Just over a week on ADHD meds now (Elvanse), and honestly, still life changing.
My clinician thinks that 50mg may be “my dose”, but it’s perhaps a little early to tell and we’re going to pick this up in a week’s time.
I’m not averse to at least trying the 60s, but we shall see.
Anyway, apparently a few people who know me find it a bit weird, or even startling to encounter me on Elvanse, especially now I’ve stepped up my dose.
Picture someone you know who has always been a “chaos goblin”. I’ve always been very outgoing (it’s a mask. I’m terrified), mercurial, eager to say my piece, etc.
Now picture such a person on speed, which is basically what Elvanse slowly converts to in your red blood cells.
The picture in your head probably isn’t someone sitting still, waiting their turn in conversation, speaking slowly and with consideration.
I’ve been told I look “drugged”, in a way vaguely reminiscent of benzodiazepines.
Nothing could be further from the truth. I am alert and focused. More than I have ever been before. I just don’t feel the need to interrupt you and finish your sentences any more.
At least, not until the evening, when it wears off. Then I’m the chaos goblin again.
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in reply to Sarah Brown • • •The BP thing is what I think will keep me from meds. I'm anxious about BP taking even at home.
Already had an arsehole consultant say I can't have meds cuz i had childhood epilepsy (no seizures or meds since i was 12 so over 30 years) and because my dad had heart issues so 🤷
I do like your posts, though, they give me hope. One day I might afford private.
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in reply to Sarah Brown • • •...sigh... Sadly yes but most likely y-chromosome linked as his dad and his grandfather also passed from it.
I, however, have a more active lifestyle, not having a car and relying on my legs to get my chubby body around.
I have a heckin load of terrible maladies in my family history, without having anything major so far myself.
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in reply to Heather 👻 • •@Heather 👻 Perhaps you are, you know, for the duration of the consultation, misremembering.
Like how we misremember to take our HRT dose before a blood test.
So forgetful.
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in reply to Heather 👻 • • •@Akki Depending on the heart issue your had had, that may not be an issue - they're predominantly only concerned in the really serious stuff. And even then it's often just a case of more monitoring.
BP unlikely to be an issue if it's controlled. Someone I know is on multiple BP meds for otherwise insane levels of hypotension and it wasn't a concern. (Just stop/tweak the meds if it goes up I guess)
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in reply to Zoë O'Connell • • •@zoe I don't know exactly what my dad had, I think it was hardening of the arteries and quadruple bypass surgery. He had a pacemaker in later life due to medical malpractice (his GP got too concerned with raising magnesium levels? So potassium spiked and fucked his heart that way)
Literally just dropped dead one day at 67.
I think the consultant was being arsey about "first" heart attack or something and he wasn't diagnosed with that until bypass surgery.
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in reply to Heather 👻 • • •12 May I hear the response to my official complaint. We'll see if they can offer outside assessment or just fuck me over some more and claim i'm just "unhappy" with the suggestion of ASD/anxiety/whatever they wanna make up.