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Being a member of the Cult of Amphetamine is all consuming in a way that even transition isn’t.

The trans thing these days is easy. You take HRT and then forget about it (we outsource “constantly being Normal about trans women” to Joanne Rowling and Shut Up Wesley Streeting).

But this … the thing is you have the whole Flowers for Agernon daily speed run (pun possibly intended). You count your hours and plan your day around the likely time, plus or minus a bit, when you will suddenly turn from being a functional adult into an overstimulated bag of cats.

A true revolution would be giving us all day relief. You can’t do that with stimulants though.

And as a result, you kinda end up leaning into the whole “medically sanctioned speed addict” thing, especially as irreverent humour is already something having ADHD tends to prime you for.

7 hours. Maybe.

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in reply to Sarah Brown

ah yes welcome to the 'is the person I want to be?' angst. After 5 years I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea that career success isn't worth it.
I frequently miss being embodied chaos.
in reply to Sarah Brown

They are giving you the extended release version, right? All they would give me is the quick release version, until I got sick of it.
in reply to Cy

@Cy I have Elvanse 70, which is delayed release rather than extended release, and Amfexa 20, which is instant release dexamphetamine, which I normally take in doses of 10mg
@Cy
in reply to Sarah Brown

yeah just today I slept in and thus couldn’t really take my extended release pills anymore cause it’d still be in my system round bedtime so I was useless all day. Jokes on me of course as I clearly ended up staying up late enough anyhow
in reply to marlies

@marlies It makes me sleep, so I have no issue taking it late, thankfully.

In fact, it's just worn off. Time for a double espresso before bed.

in reply to Sarah Brown

i sleep fine on stims during the day (planned and unplanned naps) but not at night. I think it’s purely psychological (worrying i’m not gonna sleep keeping me up) but knowing that doesn’t change it